This is it!!

There is 2 and there is 5... combine them together. No, not 7 (eventhough i was still on that number hehe)

IT'S 25!!!!

Quarter of century...
Just arrived on this stage. Still needs so much to learn. I hope you will guide through it. My people said , your brain should grow just like your age. But the problem is, i don't even know whether it can grow or not. More precisely i don't know if i have it or not.... hehehe...

Yeah well... whatever it is... i will ask for guidance on achieving my dreams. I really need much much much prayer on tha one. For the best and for worse. For the poor and the rich. I have to say it out loud.

25 IS MY NUMBER NOW!!!

Cheers ^0^

Apparently I Miss You

Apparently I miss you. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve already gave a;; of my strength to avoid this feeling. But deep down inside, without me even realized it, I’m losing you. Just as simple as ‘I miss you’

I miss every single event that happened between us. Our chat while we’re still in the middle of office hours. So I kept changing windows’ screens on my PC and getting mixed up between YM, Corel draw and Microsoft Word.

I miss our discussions about life when we’re supposed to be discussing about the design materials. I miss we’re sharing to each other about passion in job while you’re visiting my office or the other way around while our bosses had meeting.

I miss when you told me stories about your friends, your family, ‘The Don Conello’, family and you explained to me their names and stories behind your friendship.

I miss times when you’re waiting for me at your office when I was still in the middle of meeting with your superior. And you walked me to my car when I was done.

I miss times when you talked about something that I don’t even understand and you would try to explain too me patiently until I said ’oh… I see then’ and you would smile afterwards. And, you would never knew about this truth, even until this very second, I felt my blood pressure rapidly increase, my heart beat faster and I felt hyperventilating when saw you’re smiling.

I miss times when we were arguing about silly things like which football club was better is it Chelsea or Manchester United? Or which electronic music is better? Telepop Music or The Postal Service?

I miss times when, out of nowhere, we were having this conversation:
You : I was hanging out with my friends from high school yesterday
Me : Really?
You : Yeah, just wanna let you know
Me : Oh okay
You : So… how’s life?

I miss times when we were at the coffee shop and I was busy with my nook and you were busy with your Macbook and scratch pad, and we would not talk until we were finish. Our conversation was only, what would you like to order? And we were fine with that situation, not complaining even a bit.


There so many reasons I can list why I miss you, but then again, I realized we are not walking on the same path anymore. And it was my entire fault. I understand.

I Don't Care

I’ve been tired living in the past
More precisely I’ve been tired living by your influence
Because of you I cannot bear to face the future
Because of you I’m afraid to start from the beginning
Because of you I don’t trust anyone anymore
Including myself
Can you even believe that?
Because of you I’m unable to face LOVE
People may say I’ve been childish
You may I’ve been acting unwise
But let me ask you these,
Were you being wise?
Were you not being childish?
Were you being truthfully?
Those answers are ‘NO’
So don’t blame me if I cannot accept you in my life anymore
Don’t you dare thinking I wasn’t being fair to you
This is my life. I’m the one who decide whether you’re in or out
And, for the love of God, don’t you dare bugging me with such a stupid thing
I don’t give a damn about what happen with your life
Do you hear me? I don’t CARE….

A Lettter To You

A letter to you..
Every single day of my life, i had you inside my heart
Every single neuron on my brain has you to be thought of
I may thought, once in a while, that I can live without you
In fact, I can. But I don’t want to
I don’t want to live without you, cause you’ve made me me
You’ve made become a cynical person
You’ve made become a selfish person
You’ve made me become a soft person
You’ve made me become a loving person
You’ve made me me.
For whatever I am, you will always take me
You trust me when no one does
You hugged me when I made you cried
You encouraged me when I let myself down
But most of all
You stayed with me when everybody leaves
For every single things that you’ve done to me
I’ m very grateful
I wish I could give you more, but for this moment
That’s all I could give to you
Maybe even that’s the only thing I’ve able to give to you
Now I want to ask you more favors
I hope there are not too much, but here we go
I want you to be at my wedding day
I want you to be there when I’m giving birth, every single of it
I want you to be there when I’m old and wrinkle
I want you to be at my funeral
Because I need you to be here with me
I need you to yell at me when I do something wrong
I need you to tap my shoulder when I cry
I need you to hold me tight when I’ve got nervous breakdown
I need you to be there to hug me when I come to you crying for hours
And not to say anything when I do that, because most the times I need to cry with no reason
Finally, I need you to know that, no matter what I did, do or even will do,
I love you
And I mean it, sincerely

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When you talk about acomplishment, what do you have on mind?
good career? happy family? great husband? awesome lifestyle?
you name it. Everyone define accomplishement in different things. For me, accomplishment means doing something that i love doing it. It doesn't have something i've been dreamt about, but something new that completely not on your dream back then on the high school, but when you do it, you're enjoying doing that thing because you have such an enormous passion you put on it.

Living what you love. Loving what you live.


Speaking of which, i'm way way too far from something called an accomplishment. Don't know what you want in life is the number one notification you should aware about, because you will live this live blankly. And that people, is exactly what i'm doing right now.


I have so many things that i want to achieve but, yet, i've done nothing to make it happen. Sometimes, well most of the times, i'm asking to myself 'what the heck are you doing?'


Until this very second, i still haven't found the answer. No one is able to tell me the answer nor i try to find it anyway. I'm not feeling hopeless. i just feel...


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