Earlier this year, I promise myself that I would write more on this blog, at least once a month. It is one of my new year's resolutions. It doesn't have to a 'heavy' or 'meaningful' kind of writing (HA! When have I ever write something heavy and meaningful????), I just need to write something, about anything. Lately I have been busy with work, social life and catching up with my favorite TV series that I completely forgot that I have a writing due every month. Next thing I know, it is already the 30th day of the month (how time really flies ! *sigh*). Here I am, during camping activities with my friends, in front of bonfire, writing this emergency post. Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Lately, I feel like I have lost interest in a lot of things. Things I used to enjoy. People who know me are pretty aware that I'm K-pop fan. My fellow K-pop fangirls are completely aware of how serious I am in taking this fangirl profession. I have never been an avid fangirl, but I am sure quite intense in spazzing (mostly on Twitter). There were times when I would spent quite large sum of money to watch concerts ( K-pop concerts' tickets are sure not cheap) even if that means I have to go overseas. I would buy imported CDs of my favorite artists and bought the same album digitally on itunes. Whenever my favorite artists release new songs or music video, I would Iisten or watch it as soon as it was released. When they were on variety shows, I would impatiently waited for the subbed videos to be released. I would constantly refreshing my twitter feeds to get the latest news about them. My laptop hard disc would be filled by their videos and I would constantly listen to their songs on my MP3 player. It USED TO BE like that.
Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy their music, video and performances. It's just, their percentages on my priority list is not as big as they used to be. Having that said, spending large sum of money on them is quite affecting. You know the feeling when you really like something money is not a problem? And you don't like something, even the small amount of money feels like a waste? That's how I feel. It may sounds really harsh, but really I don't mean that 😝.
For what it's worth, I really had a great time being a fangirl. Of course, there are times when I would cringing and asking myself 'what were you thinking spending THAT much of money?'. But I would keep telling myself, if I haven't done that in the past, I would probably regret it more in the future. All happens in the good times and all good times worth remembering.
