Happy Birthday, My Awesome Kiddo

It is amazing how five years ago I didn't even know of your existence and now, after years of investing so much into the feeling, you have become one of those people whose well-being makes me curious. What are you up to? Are you okay? Are you happy? Are you healthy? Do you socialize well? All sort of questions that seems to be normal to be asked to my friends (or boyfriend), someone whom I know and, most definitely, know me.

If I hadn't watched that video where you screamed at the top of your lung 'MY BALL! MY BALL!' while putting that silly smile of yours, I wouldn't had noticed you distinctly. if I hadn't, then, watched that show where you gained the endearment name dumber, I wouldn't have invested that much of affection towards you. And if, as much as painful it still is, you hadn't had that car accident back in 2011, I wouldn't have invested even more affection towards you. And most of all, connection.

So, here I am, celebrating another birthday of yours. I don't know why I even write this post dedicated to you when I know you won't even read this. Whether you are reading or not, I want you to know that lately I may haven't been invested that much time, energy, and money for you as much I did in the past, but I think I always have that soft spot in my heart for you. I am not going to say 'I will always love you forever' because 'forever' is a very long time, but for now, I still have that soft spot for you (and the rest of the band, of course). And maybe in a year or two or three, I won't even remember your birthday anymore, but for now, I want to do this for you.

Happy birthday, my sweet, funny, silly, happy kiddo. May the year ahead will treat you awesomely. Keep dreaming and chasing your dreams for dreams do come true. You are the living proof of it. So, stay dreaming. Keep smiling (or in your word, smell) and be happy, always. You always say that even when you are not happy, you will always smile and everything will feel better and you will be happy again. You have taught me that. I will carry that thought for the rest of my life. Stay healthy, I know I shouldn't be worry about this one thing but I need to say it, know your own body and do not push it too hard. And do not being too hard to yourself. Stop being too self-conscious and thinking low about yourself, you are an amazing singer with amazing voice with amazing personality. You are in the same level as your other four band-mates, the awesome level.

Go mingle, meet with a lot of people, learn from their life stories, hang out and have fun. Go meet someone special and date, you have a lot of affection in you waiting to be given but you are too shy to show it, maybe you will give it to your significant other (if you are already have one right now, good for you!). I really hope you will meet (or already met) someone who is kind and can be a good partner and companion to you. You deserve it. May you will always be loved and treasured by a lot of people.

Last but not least, don't give up on your Korean solo album yet, your fans deserve it and most of all, you deserve it. And I don't think you can handle SNS (joking). Be great. Be amazing. Be awesome. But stay humble. You will be a much greater person than you already are. Happy birthday, my awesome kiddo. XOXO

Like a phoenix, you have risen from the darkest place. You can deal with anything now.

Images are taken from @ygent_official and @just_for_bb